I’ve worked through lunch, I’ve wasted mornings, I’ve wasted afternoons, I’ve sat here doing nothing at lunch for an hour before and an hour afterward, I’ve worked late, I’ve come in early, I’ve spent weekends and late nights here, I’ve been here when I should have been elsewhere and I’ve been gone when I was supposed to be here. It feels different at the time but it all seems the same in the end.
My main course of action for fun involves getting together with friends. I used to draw or play video games or watch movies but now I see my best friends and we have drinks. I used to never string two days of drinking together, and then never two weekends in a row, and now I’m pretty happy to allow myself to enjoy in moderation. I just let the good times come to me. Tonight, the night nurse will be home with the kids and my wife and I are going to watch Man Of Steel at 10:00 pm. I’m usually asleep on the couch at nine, so I guess what I’m saying is there probably won’t be any drinking before the movie unless I drink coffee.
I’m the perfect guy to ask about kids, so no one ever does. I have two girls and a boy. I have healthy and medically challenged. I have a female carbon copy of me, the firstborn with a temper who is athletic and loves all things art. I have a middle who is sweet as can be and people-pleasing and manipulative at the same time, who loves all dearly and who I cannot possibly understand, but love unconditionally. I have the boy, and I’ve talked about him an awful lot, and he’s the toughest, most easygoing dude on the planet.
I love easily. I want to wrap my arms around the world. I’d like to buy the world a Coke. I’d like to teach the world to sing, in perfect harmony. The ink is black, the page is white. Hold me, like the River Jordan. I’m not a smart man, but I know what love is. Have you seen my baseball?
It’s quite a trip. I’ve worked, I’ve enjoyed myself, I’ve been tormented, I’ve been euphoric, I’ve seen births, deaths, marriages, falling in, falling out, moving on, moving away, moving up and out and into the wild blue. And that’s just on Tumblr, any given day of the week. It may be different to different people at the time, but it all seems the same in the end.